Dreams

1st Year

2nd Year

Kalau boleh tiap-tiap tahun nak macam ni. Dah masuk 3rd Year ni nampak lah sikit-sikit hala tuju hidup tu nak ke mana. Selama ni samar kelam sangat haha. It's okay lah, people can say whatever they want but it's my life. Allah is the Best of Givers, so I beg Him to give me the best in life. Usaha! Usaha! Usaha! Rezeki tu Allah yang tentukan. I work really hard to get what I want sebab aku tak nak satu hari tu aku cakap "Kalau lah aku boleh buat lagi baik. Kalau lah blablabla....". Terkilan. Aku tak nak.

Believe

Hi ! I'm still here, going nowhere but i'm just too lazy to write out my thoughts. Since lately ni i've been thinking too much about myself, i think this is the best way to get rid of this negative thoughts.

I don't know what is wrong with me like i'm not the type of person yang akan compare diri sendiri dengan orang lain. But this time around, banyak betul comparison yang berlaku ye sampai aku rasa macam ehhhh nak give up. After few days of thinking, i'm finally 'found' myself. Cehhh.

So stop being what people expect you to be. This is your own journey. It's okay for you to fall sometimes, but prepare yourself to get up, rise and shine. There's no "i'm better than you". All we should do is being better than we were before. Tak apa lah kalau other people didn't see your struggles but He sees everything and that's all matters. Asalkan kau rasa kau dah buat yang terbaik and kau terima apa yang Allah bagi, even sedikit, even tak sehebat orang lain, itu dah more than enough tau. So usaha sehabis mampu. Don't give up until Allah say "STOP". Assalamualaikum.

Hi

Hi! It has been a long time kan since my last post. This semester really kills me lah weh. Too many assignments, projects, tests and whatnot. Even ada je free time tapi macam tak rasa sangat because of the tiredness yang never ending. So here I am with lots of problems. Seriously, I put 100% trust in Him. I talk to Him and always burst into flood of tears. I talk to my best friends but you know sometimes I just don't wanna talk to them because I feel weak. I hate myself for making everyone unhappy with me. I am so sorry.

I've tried my best to not being distracted bila datangnya masalah ni. Like at one time aku sedih, aku cecepat nangis pastu cecepat get over it pastu cecepat bukak buku study. Yeah it sounds weird but that's all I can do other than talking to Him lah kan. But sampai bila nak macam ni? Like these problems never settled. And then bila ke masanya aku nak happy? Entah. I don't know. And maybe I shouldn't know. So let's keep walking forward. Assalamualaikum.

Problems

Talking about life problems yeah everyone has at least one. We can't say that particular person has no problem just because he/she always get what he/she wanted. Everyone has their own battles which we have no idea what they are. I have mine too. When I said so, that means I have plenty. It is not about how we gonna solve that problems. It is about how we handle them. Show 'em who's the boss here, hahahaha.

It's okay to jatuh tergolek ditimpa selimut tetangga (ain't it funny?). I always follow this 'prinsip' in my life. When life knocks you down, have a rest and take a nap. Don't rush to climb again. Bukannya apa. That is the right time for you to fix your relationship with Allah. Use that moment to talk to Him. Cry like a baby. Luahkan everything. He hears you dude. He sees every single thing.

And bear in mind. Hidup ini tak selalunya indah percayalah percayalah walau di mana dirimu hatiku hanya untukmu you're always in my heart. Hehehe. Memang kadang kita di atas lepak goyang kaki. Kadang kita di bawah tengah lap air mata. So what? You have to get used to it la. Bila kat atas, kau bersyukur. Bila kat bawah, kau sabar. Memang susah tapi Allah kan ada. Ask Him for help.

Alaaa biasa lah tu. Aku kalau ada masalah ciput pon cecepat aku contact Mirfa nangis sedu sedan. Even though dia jauh beribu batu, she always have time for me. Lumrah kan kalau ada masalah je kita cari Allah. Lepas tu kita ngadu kat family or bestfriends kita. I am so blessed to have this kind of friendship with her. It's like Allah answer me through this girl. Macam nasihat yang Mirfa bagi tu memang sampai ke hati and then connected to Him.

One more thing, don't mix up your problems with your studies because these two things cannot being friends. Nanti kau jugak yang serabut. Sebesar mana sekali pon masalah kita tu, jangan dilayan sangat hahaha.

Susah kan? But don't worry guys. Have faith in Him. Kita ada senjata paling berkesan sekali. Doa! I will always pray for you guys. May Allah ease everything and may this success be ours. To those yang tak dapat apa yang diimpikan, come on! Keep dreaming! But don't forget to bring along the efforts okay? Lastly, la tahzan. Assalamualaikum.

Expectation

To be honest, I really hate when people expecting something from me lagi-lagi in my academic results. Yes, I got 5/25 in mechanic of materials quiz and 37/100 in that test 1. Ye aku tahu memang teruk. Tapi sikit pon aku tak sedih in fact aku senyum je bila dapat those papers. Because I know it was my mistake. Siapa suruh tak hafal teori? Siapa suruh salah guna formula? 

Then mulalah ada orang cakap aku tak study, wondering why my results become like that. Oh people. Orang pandai tak boleh ke bodoh sekali sekala? Mana boleh kau nak expect orang tu pandai sentiasa. There must be something that she or he not good at. Come on lah.

Ni tak cerita kat mak aku lagi. Kalau dia tahu, mulalah keluar ayat-ayat macam dalam novel. Don't worry people. Even aku ni sengal-sengal ubi, tersengguk-senguk dalam kelas, ter scroll insta lelebih, ter crush dekat dia tu hah, tapi tak kan lah aku nak biarkan results aku jatuh macam tu je. I have my own plan. Of course lah aku akan struggle like what the heaven untuk final nanti. Memang setiap kali nak final exam aku akan berubah jadi zombie kampung pisang nak all out punya pasal.

So please pray for my best. Sebab aku memang nak sangat pergi overseas and i really craving for that first class degree cuma aku tak tunjuk je. Kalau tak dapat results gempak terpaksa lah aku guna plan B iaitu, usha mana-mana anak Dato' or jadi artis memandangkan suara aku merdu or bukak pusat karaoke keluarga orrrrrr wait! Apsal plan B ni semua macam menuju ke neraka je. Haihhh. I only have one plan and I need you Allah. Really.