Please

I don't know how to explain to others bout how I feel. But to make it clear, could you stop bothering me? Aku tak boleh lah setiap hari nak update kat kau, what I'm doing? What I eat? With whom? Aku rimas. I'm a normal person. Dah tengah malam kau tanya tengah buat apa, heyyy what do you expect? Aku tengah main guli ke? Mesti lah aku tengah berguling nak tidur. If the loved ones yang tanya aku tak kesah sangat. Ni aku dah friendzone pon tak faham jugak dah kenapa?

Ya Allah. Rasa nak carut tapi tak baik pulak. I know you are my friend. But you should also know that we're just friends. Couldn't be more than that. If you want to share your problems or something which I should know, I would spend hours for you. Because you're my friend. But everytime I ask you why, kau cakap "saja je. Bosan doh." Amboi, apa kau ingat aku funfair ke? Kau cari bila bosan. Yang "doh" tu pon dah buat aku sakit hati.

And please stop forcing me to share my problems with you. If I want to, dah lama aku buat. Tak semua benda aku kena cerita. Tak semua benda patut didedahkan. I just want you to understand my situation. Aku perempuan. I don't have to reveal everything to you. Please don't "syg oi" me like hundred times. I feel so tak selesa, tak senang duduk. I feel burdened. I know I'm not that good but the sayang thingy seriously annoying wey. How easy for you to sayang orang tak kira masa and situation. Dengan aku yang sengal sengal ubi pon kau cakap sayang, dengan perempuan lain apa tah lagi kan. Ya Allah. Rasa nak carut lagi.

I know you're so kind. Helping me out when I need you. But to ask me to be your "kawan bila kebosanan" in return is really annoying. Seriously. I hate it the most. Please don't get angry whenever you read this. If I say it right in front of your face, I afraid that you won't understand and at the end, blaming me for what had happened. Sorry.